My latest obsession:

Ever since I was a little girl I've dreamed of becoming a model. I wanted to be one of them so badly. I imagined myself walking the runways, being photographed in beautiful places, wearing the fancy clothes, feeling on top of the world. I would read every fashion magazine and study the models carefully, their poses, their stance, their hair, their makeup, etc. I remember pretending I was one of them and posing in the mirror and perfecting my walk. I even went to a few open calls and was accepted but it turns out you have to have money to get started and growing up that's something we seemed to never have. So as you can see I was pretty obsessed. Over the years my dream has faded but, every year around this time I get taken back to when I was a little girl with my head in the clouds and a hopeful heart. The annual VICTORIA'S SECRET Fashion Show is the one to blame. I get more excited than a child in a candy store. I sit with anticipation counting down the days. When it is finally on my TV screen I am over filled with joy. It's a world of fantasy with every last detail from the models, to the clothes, to the runway. It’s like living through them vicariously. I can't wait for this years show.
It will be airing Tuesday December 1st at 10/9C on CBS!! Check it out!! (:

All these things in my life:

Hey, So here's and update on everything that's going on with me and my life. Ok so where to start..
I've just turned the big 2-4, yikes, that means not much longer and I will be the BIG 3-0, OH NO!! Daniel proposed to me back in August so I'm now engaged to the most wonderful man in the entire world. I'm 20 weeks pregnant as of today, that means only 20 more to go!! We're going to have a baby girl and we've decided to call her Ellie! I signed up for school at Michigan College Of Beauty, I'm going for Esthetics and I absolutely cannot wait!! Daniel is still unemployed and he was offered his job back but he decided to turn it down because of school so that means we're going to be out of 90% of our income and I have no clue as to what we're going to do. He's currently looking for a job so hopefully he will get one that will work around his school schedule and pay decent as well. I got fired from my job back in the summer because I called off to go to a funeral for a really close friend (R.I.P. J). and then because I had a friend come in from out of town and I had requested it off ahead and the boss lady never gave it to me. It's not that big of a deal though because I was contingent and worked 2-3 days a week if that at only 4 hours and I only made 9. something an hour but also my wages were being garnished for breaking a lease with my first apartment I had at 17. So I was basically working for NOTHING. I'm getting really stressed out because we are behind on the bills and they just keep adding up, also Christmas is literally just around the corner and I'm worrying about how the hell I am going to get gifts for Cannon and it makes me really sad and I just wish that I could sleep through the holidays and not have to go anywhere because I HATE that I wont be able to buy anyone anything. Oh if only life were simple for once. So that's pretty much the gist of things.