The way I'm feeling lately.

I am very unhappy with my body. I had my daughter April 2nd, 2010. She just turned a year old last month and instead of losing weight I have GAINED weight. I have never been overweight, most of my life I was underweight. I've been working out whenever I can. It's not the easiest thing to do with a toddler running around but, I make an effort to do at least a little every day. I have been trying to eat healthier and cut back on my portions but, I struggle with this a lot because I am an emotional eater. You know that saying "I eat my feelings"..well that's me. I HATE IT. I also think my birth control may have something to do with my weight gain. I have the Mirena IUD. I don't know how it could cause weight gain being that it has no hormones but, I have been finding many other women that have gained 20+ pounds being on it. Weird huh?!
So basically this is causing me to be an emotional wreck! People I haven't seen in a few years don't even recognize me now when they see me out in public. I feel like crawling in a hole and not coming out until all of this fat is gone. I'm not saying I want to be stick thin! I just want to look and feel healthy again. I feel like I don't even know myself. My body is foreign to me and I hate. I hate being in pictures. I hate seeing myself in the mirror. I hate leaving my house to go anywhere. I hate being in public. I just hate feeling like this.

New Hair For A New Year!!

I went from this:

To this:

And now it looks like this:

It's a dark copper brownish red with dark golden highlights! I was inspired by Mandy Moore in these pictures:

I am a chameleon when it comes to my hair.. I get bored with it often. (=
Oh well, it keeps things interesting!! What physical changes have you made so far this new year??

Highlights of MY 2010:

The birth of my beautiful baby girl:

She was 8 lb. 12 oz. She was a pretty big healthy baby!

Going to Kalahari for the first time to celebrate my sons 6th birthday..we went quite a few months before his birthday because we wouldn't be able to take a brand new baby there. We had a blast!

We sold our first set of shirts for STUDIO 141:

I finally got to go back to watch the DETROIT TIGERS play:

Ellie's first 4th Of July:

Cannon had his first field day:

Ellie's first Halloween:

I turned 25..ughghghgh. I know, right!:

Ellie's first Christmas:

I FINALLLLLY got to see "Black Swan" and it was amazing:

2010 may have had some downfalls but, for the most part it was AMAZING!!!

My latest obsession:

Ever since I was a little girl I've dreamed of becoming a model. I wanted to be one of them so badly. I imagined myself walking the runways, being photographed in beautiful places, wearing the fancy clothes, feeling on top of the world. I would read every fashion magazine and study the models carefully, their poses, their stance, their hair, their makeup, etc. I remember pretending I was one of them and posing in the mirror and perfecting my walk. I even went to a few open calls and was accepted but it turns out you have to have money to get started and growing up that's something we seemed to never have. So as you can see I was pretty obsessed. Over the years my dream has faded but, every year around this time I get taken back to when I was a little girl with my head in the clouds and a hopeful heart. The annual VICTORIA'S SECRET Fashion Show is the one to blame. I get more excited than a child in a candy store. I sit with anticipation counting down the days. When it is finally on my TV screen I am over filled with joy. It's a world of fantasy with every last detail from the models, to the clothes, to the runway. It’s like living through them vicariously. I can't wait for this years show.
It will be airing Tuesday December 1st at 10/9C on CBS!! Check it out!! (:

All these things in my life:

Hey, So here's and update on everything that's going on with me and my life. Ok so where to start..
I've just turned the big 2-4, yikes, that means not much longer and I will be the BIG 3-0, OH NO!! Daniel proposed to me back in August so I'm now engaged to the most wonderful man in the entire world. I'm 20 weeks pregnant as of today, that means only 20 more to go!! We're going to have a baby girl and we've decided to call her Ellie! I signed up for school at Michigan College Of Beauty, I'm going for Esthetics and I absolutely cannot wait!! Daniel is still unemployed and he was offered his job back but he decided to turn it down because of school so that means we're going to be out of 90% of our income and I have no clue as to what we're going to do. He's currently looking for a job so hopefully he will get one that will work around his school schedule and pay decent as well. I got fired from my job back in the summer because I called off to go to a funeral for a really close friend (R.I.P. J). and then because I had a friend come in from out of town and I had requested it off ahead and the boss lady never gave it to me. It's not that big of a deal though because I was contingent and worked 2-3 days a week if that at only 4 hours and I only made 9. something an hour but also my wages were being garnished for breaking a lease with my first apartment I had at 17. So I was basically working for NOTHING. I'm getting really stressed out because we are behind on the bills and they just keep adding up, also Christmas is literally just around the corner and I'm worrying about how the hell I am going to get gifts for Cannon and it makes me really sad and I just wish that I could sleep through the holidays and not have to go anywhere because I HATE that I wont be able to buy anyone anything. Oh if only life were simple for once. So that's pretty much the gist of things.

Little Ms. Bookworm.

So one of my summer goals is to read 100 books by September. To some people that may seem like a lot but to others it may seem like nothing. This is kind of a big deal to me because I've LOVED reading since I was about 6-7 years old. I haven't read a book in a few months so this should be good. There's not much better than soaking up the sun with a good book and a drink in hand!! I have a few books so far that I plan to read but I would appreciate ANY suggestions! I will be keeping you updated on how this turns out and how good/bad the books turn out to be. Have a GREAT summer.

Thank You.
<3 V. Lynne

The List: (Please help me keep this list going)

1: Girls' Poker Night- Jill A. Davis.
2:Queen Of Babble- Meg Cabot.
3:Queen Of Babble In The Big City- Meg Cabot.
4:Queen Of Babble Gets Hitched- Meg Cabot.

Spring is just around the corner..

Hallo!
I am so excited for spring, It seems so far away still but in reality, it is only a few weeks away! YAY!! There are SO many things I can't wait for and that I am looking forward to doing:

Journey's Backyard BBQ 2009- In Chicago, May 16th. With Live music from "Taking Back Sunday". Woot, I'm so stoked! I've never been to Chicago yet and Neither has Dan and it is also his 21st birthday weekend!! That will be good times for sure.

Daytona Beach Florida- It's been a long time coming and I can't efkin wait!!

Country Concert '09- At Ft. Loramie Ohio, July 9th-12th.

July 3rd- Our 1 year anniversary!

4th Of July- Fireworks, I Love them!

Some other little things I am looking forward to:

Weekend roadtrips- Who's in??

Spending days in the sun on the beach*

Cookouts.

Rollerblading.

Tennis.

Basketball.

Softball.

Volleyball.

Visits to the zoo.

Golf.

Putt-putt.

Go kart racing.

Being able to wear sundresses and flip flops again!!

Oh man, I could go on for dayyys.

I LOVE spring and summer.

So what are some things you have planned for your spring/summer??

If nothing hopefully I gave you a few. {;
Gute Nacht!
With Love<3 V. Lynne