I am very unhappy with my body. I had my daughter April 2nd, 2010. She just turned a year old last month and instead of losing weight I have GAINED weight. I have never been overweight, most of my life I was underweight. I've been working out whenever I can. It's not the easiest thing to do with a toddler running around but, I make an effort to do at least a little every day. I have been trying to eat healthier and cut back on my portions but, I struggle with this a lot because I am an emotional eater. You know that saying "I eat my feelings"..well that's me. I HATE IT. I also think my birth control may have something to do with my weight gain. I have the Mirena IUD. I don't know how it could cause weight gain being that it has no hormones but, I have been finding many other women that have gained 20+ pounds being on it. Weird huh?!
So basically this is causing me to be an emotional wreck! People I haven't seen in a few years don't even recognize me now when they see me out in public. I feel like crawling in a hole and not coming out until all of this fat is gone. I'm not saying I want to be stick thin! I just want to look and feel healthy again. I feel like I don't even know myself. My body is foreign to me and I hate. I hate being in pictures. I hate seeing myself in the mirror. I hate leaving my house to go anywhere. I hate being in public. I just hate feeling like this.
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